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Faith Marie

Faith Marie、以前どこかでToxic Thouthsを聴いて、いいなぁって思ってチャンネル登録だけしてた。

今日は何か聴きながらブログ書こうかなって思い、あなたへのおすすめに出ていた彼女のAntidoteを聴いてみたらこれも好きだなぁって思った。

 

それで彼女のチャンネルの歌10曲全部聴いたのだけど、やっぱりいいなぁと思った。もうこうなると書きたかったこともどうでも良くなる。出会えた感謝でいっぱいです。

 

元々Youtubeに歌をぽつぽつとアップロードしていた人のようで、かなりマイペースな活動をされているようだ。でもそれぐらいがいいのかも。

この人の歌は歌詞と歌声、それに重なるメロディが感覚で分かる部分が多い(と感じる)から、とても自然と入っていける。入っているのか、入られてるのか分からないけど。

 

特に好きなのがNVMとDevil On My Shoulder。とっても好きだから貼っておきます。同じく好きな人がいてくれたら嬉しいな。

どちらも彼女が18か19の時にリリースされてるけど、こんなに言葉にできるって凄いと思う。同時にそんな彼女だからこそその分だけ沢山もがき苦しんだのだろうとも思う。

この言い方はあまり好きじゃないけど、これはその果実なのだろう。

 


Faith Marie - NVM

 

"NVM"

 

Will they understand?
It's the question of a lifetime
Tryna find the right words
But what if they don't care?
Never mind
Dealt with it myself
Hiding in the bathroom
Wearing long sleeve shirts
Scared of what I might do
Never mind

 

No one seems to hear you till you're loud
Then they call you crazy
Then they call you crazy
Quietly I battle with myself
Days are getting hazy
Days are getting hazy
No one seems to notice when you're down
Unless you are bleeding
Unless you are bleeding
But sometimes the worst wounds are the ones
Are the ones you can't see
Are the ones you can't see
Never mind

 

Do they understand?
I'm begging for an ally
Think I'm just confused
Blow it off it's nothing new
Never mind
Little do they know
The murder of my right brain
It still has me grieving
Take these pills for sleeping
My world is turning black and white

 

No one seems to hear you till you're loud
Then they call you crazy
Then they call you crazy
Quietly I battle with myself
Days are getting hazy
Days are getting hazy
No one seems to notice when you're down
Unless you are bleeding
Unless you are bleeding
But sometimes the worst wounds are the ones
Are the ones you can't see
Are the ones you can't see

 

Never mind
Never mind

 

If life is but a dream flowing gently down the stream
Then I'm caught in the rapids leaking boats and broken things
Merrily merrily swimming towards the shore
A voice they said was harmless only threw me overboard
If life is but a dream
Nothing but a dream
Then I just wanna smile wanna smile in my sleep
Merrily merrily nightmares all the time
No one hears the screams
Just wave as I float by

 

Row row row your boat gently down the stream
Merrily merrily merrily merrily life is but a dream
Row row row your boat gently down the stream
Merrily merrily merrily merrily life is but a dream

 

https://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/faithmarie/nvm.html

 

童謡Row Row Row Your BoatのLife is but a dreamの部分、深く考えたことがなかった。

そう、Life is but a dream。その救い。希望。

もしそうであれば僕も、何も恐れずに柔らかく流れることができる。それが悪夢でも、夢という確証があるのなら。でもそうでないから夢と現実が紙一重であって、二重三重に反転する。

 

 


Faith Marie - Devil On My Shoulder (Audio)

 

"Devil On My Shoulder"

 

Beautiful silence
Beautiful pain
We're only human
We're meant to dream
Lost in a life full of mistakes
We do what feels right
Then fall with no grace
Chased by the sun
Escaping flatlines
Dreams are a curse
Wake up you're alive

 

Oh, slowly fading from the misery
I've accepted who I'm supposed to be
I've accepted who I'm supposed to see
Lady in the mirror
Oh, everyday I'm getting a bit older
And every time I break I get stronger
Everyday it's getting a bit colder
When I grow closer
To the devil on my shoulder
To the devil on my shoulder

 

Beautiful silence
Beautiful pain
Beautiful people
But we're all stained
Lost in a life
Full of mistakes
We do what feels right
Then we fall with no grace
I'mma sinner
I'mma tainted saint
I'mma savior
It's all the same
Chased by the sun
Escaping flatlines
Dreams are a curse
Wake up you're alive

 

Oh, slowly fading from the misery
I've accepted who I'm supposed to be
I've accepted who I'm supposed to see
Lady in the mirror
Oh, everyday I'm getting a bit older
And every time I break I get stronger
Everyday it's getting a bit colder
When I grow closer
To the devil on my shoulder
To the devil on my shoulder

 

We're all broken, it's fate
It's the way that we're made
All the pieces are there
They just aren't in there place
So I struggle to stand
But don't ask for a hand
My pride tells me no
You're better alone
I'm uncomfortably numb
As I stuff what I've found
And I start to shut down
Freeze in front of a crowd
It's what I don't say
I don't love I don't hate
Closing my mouth and turning my face
But it's no way to live to have nothing to give
Consuming the doubt
Not letting them in
But I'm not here to win
To survive but I'm already dead
So I picked up my head
I picked up my head
I picked up my head

 

Oh, everyday I'm getting a bit older...
Everyday it's getting a bit colder...
Oh, everyday I'm getting a bit older...
Everyday it's getting a bit colder...
When I grow closer
To the devil on my shoulder
To the devil on my shoulder

 

https://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/faithmarie/devilonmyshoulder.html

 

これもとっても好き。言葉にするのは難しいけど、とっても。

人にはそれぞれの感じ方、捉え方、そして経験があって、それと照らし合わせて歌を感じるんだと思う。この歌は僕の感覚的な経験ととても繋がる。そして今もその中にいる。